Beauty for Ashes

Sunday, July 25, 2004

How do you tell if you're awake or still dreaming?

It took awhile, but I finally feel like I'm back at home, sort of.  Lauren's at the beach so I've pretty much been doing my normal thing of hanging out at Mark and Jamie's house with them and Stephen.  My brother got a car, it's an '89 Cherokee, but he still doesn't have his license.  Jamie and I discovered that we do not have the ability to pick out a movie we have to be forced to watch something we don't want to by everyone else.  I leave tomorrow morning for orientation at App.  Not looking forward to it.  Lot's of shows coming up, this Friday it's Thursday and Classic Case at Lincoln theater (thanks Mark).  Then Warped Tour.  I havn't seen a show since Cornerstone, I'm freakin out.  Right now I'm at the Casa de Harris, and Mark and Brian are watching SWAT on HBO, Jamie's talking on the phone on the deck, and Stephen's off with his horses.  Went to a Bat's game Friday I guess, Mark, Jamie and I accidently went to Aggie Stadium first and found that we were the only white people around we soon ran to War Memorial to watch the Bats lose.  Brad managed to acquire a free pizza.  Sorry for the jumpiness I'm to lazy to try and make this coherent.

Thursday, July 22, 2004

State of Confusion

Well from about 10:30pm until about 2am last night I lay on the hood of my Camaro in an abandoned Home Depot parking lot talking to a named Lauren whom most of you have not met.  Whatever conclusions you may draw from that you're probably, well almost certainly, wrong.  However, I do not feel like explaining anything right now.  So I'm sorry.  But some things have certainly changed in light of my Mexico trip, I'm just not completly sure what they are yet.  I am extremly glad to be home, my crazy Mexican skin itching virus is pretty much gone.  I'm going to go watch all three Back to the Future movies now.

Tuesday, July 20, 2004

Return

Well that was an experience and a half.    Let's see, to sumarize I found my short term calling, saw many many people saved and/or healed/ contracted some crazy mexican virus, and heard all sorts of prophecies.  I also ate the best food of my life.  That's it for now more later.

Sunday, July 04, 2004

Don't wake me, I plan on sleeping in

I don't know about everyone else, but I find it quite difficult to fall asleep during the summer. I find myself totally powerless to stop my mind from thinking. I go from letting fictional scenarios play out to contemplating letters I plan on writing or conversations I wish I had the courage to have. Sometimes I think up ridiculous physics problems that I don't really understand such as, is it possible to travel so fast you'd occupy all points in the universe at the same time? (assuming the universe is finite, which I doubt.) I know that's more than a little strange but I don't care. I guess the thing that distracts me the most is just a few people who seem to occupy my thoughts more than the rest.

While I was in Texas I missed everyone so much, so I don't know how I'm going to fare in Mexico. (I've got problems). These few days I've been home between Texas and Mexico have been wonderful thanks to Mark, Stephen, and Jamie. I'm gonna miss you guys so much. Well, I leave at 4:30 am, so everyone pray for me and everyone else who is going. Cya in two weeks.