low lights & crisp nights, fist fights & pearly whites

For some reason I've been dealing with a lot lately. For no apparent reason a lot of crap has been just coming back up recently, making it, at times, difficult to sleep. Despite being totally exhausted most of the time. However, it's been strangely ok.
The fair is this weekend, our fourth annual trip. It's amazing to think what amazingly different personal places I've been each time I've gone. It's hard not to wish that I had done things differently, somehow been wiser. But I wouldn't trade where I am now for anything, and I have to beleive that all my stupidity has at least taught me some things, but that remains to be seen I suppose. whatever