last breath, first laugh

As I look around I see that we're falling into our winter melancholy. Trying not to look at the future, but being unable to turn away. Like it's some creature stalking us. I feel like life is a huge weight crushing my body, but not my spirit. My friends are to amazing. It's so crazy how we're just this small group of people all going through some pretty intense crap in our lives, and we all know that if it weren't for the others we could never make it. What a life.