A Time to Embrace, and a time to Refrain from Embracing

God has me. That's all that matters. My life has been very, very interesting lately, well at least to me. God's just making sure that I know that I'm totally dependent on him for everything, I sometimes forget. It's not a fun thing to be reminded of, I don't like being weak. But I am, so very weak. I just need to realize that I don't need to be strong, he'll be strong for me if I let him. I don't know why I find that so hard to accept. Oh well, "it's the months that don't matter, it's the days I can't take, when the hours move to minutes and we're seconds away". I hate being patient, I'm the most impatient person I know. This is really not like me, I don't do sfuff like this. Well, I guess I do I just didn't know it. I wish I didn't. Why is it that we believe what Christ says about everyone else, but we don't think it applies to us?

Home is Where You Make It

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Is the world worth saving, Batman

I'm very very encouraged. I was really, really needing to worship. When I don't worship much for awhile I get all kinda depressed and stuff. Even though we had worship in church Sunday I still was feeling down on Tuesday, which was also the first day of classes. My classes went well, I think it'll be easier here than at Wesleyan. Anyway, Marshall called me while I was eating and told me that they were having worship in a rock club named Legends which is next door to my dorm. So that was good and then we left with Schrum, Will, and some other people who were really cool. Especially this kid named Seth who lived in Moscow for 9 years, and seems to be a pretty strong Christian. So we were all going to the Student Union to eat probably 8 of us, and there's this other worship band playing outside the Student Union in the heart of the ASU campus, so we started worshipping again and it was awesome. Then we went and ate and played pool for awhile. So God has really taken care of us here. He knows how much we need to worship him, and he just takes care of us. So Marshall and I were extremly encouraged when we got back to our humble abode, (it's actually amazingly humble, it's practically groveling.) It is so obvious to me that the whole purpose of human existence is to bring glory to God, and it's so easy to do it. When I'm not doing it I feel utterly useless. When we just live our lives and love people he is glorified, when we just do what we're supposed to be doing it glorifies him, and when you really realize this it'll make you want to glorify him more. I'm so glad that I don't have this view that I have to figure out what I want to be as soon as possible, because frankly I don't care what I do for money, because that doesn't matter. I am sooooooo glad that doesn't matter. It's one of the most liberating truths out there. Anyway I don't know how much sense this has made, but basically God is faithfull.

Every slow and quiet car ride

I still don't know what it's like to be a college student as classes don't start till tuesday. So I'm dreading tuesday. Marsh and I have been kept faily busy by freshmen orientation, which sucks so bad that I can't even communicate it. Never have I seen so many hormone crazed freaks. Our orientation leader talks about nothing but sex, and she manages to relate everything anyone says to a sexual inuendo it's disgusting. So anyways Marshall and I quit going to orientation, but come to find out it was for a grade and they were taking attendance, so we're off to a great start. We directed traffic for awhile, that was pretty fun. We get free pizza about twice a day and I'm royally sick of it with no end in sight. Been talking on the phone alot to people I miss. There are weird people in my dorm. Today Marshall, Nikki, and I were sitting in our dorm with the door open and this girl we've never seen before walks in writes the word "hey" on our door and left without a word, completly ignoring Marshall's confused sounding "hello?". Went to church this morning to Living Water Christian Fellowship, it seems promising they obviously love Jesus and that's enough for me. I've met some pretty cool people, and seen some old friends. Everyone talk to Bingham online his sn is Bigaham616 he's lonely. Life is extremly emotionally complicated right now.

If You Don't Play Nice you can't have ice cream

I don't live at home anymore. I still cannot really comprehend that. I still feel like I'm on vacation and that soon it will be time to go home, only this is home now, and it kinda sucks Spent the last couple days saying my goodbyes. First on Sunday I said goodbye to all the OFY people and I found that difficult to say the least. Then Monday I said goodbye to Lauren, one of the hardest things I've ever done. Then Tuesday it was Jamie's turn, although I think I hid it well, it was also one of hardest things I've ever done. Mark ran off before I could say goodbye, so bye Mark I'll be seein ya. And of course Wednesday was my family, not quite as hard since I'll be seeing them plenty still. Anyways one thing that has comforted me is that even though saying my goodbyes was incredibly sad, how much sadder would it have been if I'd never known these people? I've talked to other students who say that they where so happy to leave home. I'm glad that leaving home was hard. I would like to thank everyone who has been apart of my life, I love you all so much. So many of you have made enormous impacts on my life that you'll never know of. Anyways, I'm having fun up here. I had to go park my car at the freshmen lot which is 2 miles from my dorm and the plan was to take the bus back to campus, however after waiting for the bus for over an hour we decided it wasn't coming. However, the wait was pretty fun, Marshall and I debated with fellow Ap. students about science, relgion, politics, moral issues, and the Spiritual relm. It encouraged me that the all didn't totally disagree, and Marshall and I did pretty well I think, we sort of backed them all into a corner philosophically. We eventually hitchhiked back to campus with a recenltly graduated pot head who sounded exactly like the turtle in Finding Nemo. Anyway, I miss you guys and I'll be seeing you soon.

License Number NXC-9926

We went to see Napoleon Dynamite again last night. What a weird night it was, Jessie and Alex showed up, along with the band Beloved and some guy who sold Marshall some shoe's. So Everyone in the movie theater had some sort of connection to everyone else, or at least we had all met before. The movie was hillarious again, I highly recommend it. In other news I got published (in a way) http://hedc.otago.ac.nz/ternz/2004/conference/conference.asp that's my picture. More to come.

A Week Left in Paradise

Well I still havn't come to terms with the idea of moving away. I think that perhaps it won't be as drastic a change as I earlier feared. What with everyone coming to visit me( ya'll had better) and the fact that I will be driving home alot. I'm already looking forward for my road trip to Georgia in October with Mark and Emily. Hopefully I'll see Lauren tonight. But if not then I'll probably see her on Friday. Maybe I'll take her to that big show at Ace's. My mom want's me to start packing, but that would be like admitting that I'm leaving which I really don't feel like doing. I also have a ton of letters to right to people letting them know what they've meant to me. It looks like I'll be mailing them. Well I guess I'll go to church now...

Falling Apart

Recent events have left me much less jovial than normal (I'm normally not that jovial, at least on the outside). I have managed to get Lauren completly grounded until further notice. As well as causing her more emotional pain. I deserve to be shot. So we can't see or talk to each other for awhile. So I basically feel like crap. On top of this Misty's sister died Wednesday night of unknown causes. So last night I spilled the whole mess to Jamie on aim and then went down to her house to watch the X-Files and when I got there she had a cup of CJ and some chocolate waiting for me (along with some garlic powder to chase away Vampires). This simple gesture meant a great deal to me and went along way to cheering me up. However, as I drove to Fayetville this morning for a day of beach volleyball, ropeswings, a lake, and sunburns I thought of Lauren grounded because of me. How's that for justice, I'm the one at fault, yet I'm the one driving to the lake with my friends while she's at home cut off from everyone. Fantasy lake was fun, we hung out with a bunch of soldiers from Fort Bragg all day. I have been well acquainted with shirtless Brad, but today I had the umm pleasure of meeting butt Brad. We sucked up several games of beach volleyball, (thankfully soldiers are none to good at volleyball as well). I must admit I enjoyed myself. On the way home, driving into one of the most beautiful sunsets I have ever seen, Lauren called and Marshall, who doesn't know when not to be an inconsiderate sak-o-crap, yelled for her to get off the phone because I was driving. So she insisted on hanging up and that was that. I don't blame him he doesn't know the whole story, few do. So I had a great day at the lake Lauren had a crappy day at home. I don't think I have the ability to not hurt anyone I love.

We'll be miles apart

Well Stephen's gone. There is so much I'll miss. The times he pulled me aside and asks me hard questions that I needed to be asked. Tosseling. The constant unquenchable exuberance that I have never seen in anyone else before. One thing with Stephen, we rarely if ever talked about stuff we used to do or did last summer or old fond memories. Because with Stephen we were always making new memories, and the old ones are nice to have but making new ones was much more important than reminiscing about past joys. I'll see him in October if at all possible.
Next topic. Went to Warped tour yesterday. Lauren and I showed up at the Elswick's house at about 6:30am. Jonathan was outside cleaning out his car. Josh L. wasn't even up yet. Ray soon came down the stairs and instead of the traditional "Good Morning" it was something about putting feet on pillows and/or sisters. Anyway about an hour later Jonathan, Josh L., Ellen, Lauren, and I were on our way. We didn't have a whole lot to do for quite some time. We even saw Antiflag (Jonathan's idea) which I do not recommend. I went to New Found Glory with Lauren, it was a good show even though I don't like them. Then the really good shows started. First was Coheed and Cambria, then Underoath, Yellowcard, Taking Back Sunday, and Story of the Year. My favorite was of course, Taking Back Sunday they were amazing. Lauren took quite a beating during Story of the Year (we were like three feet from the stage) so that wasn't as fun as it could have been but oh well. Noelle showed up and Jonathan left Taking Back Sunday, which was his favorite band there, to go see From Autum to Ashes with her. Interesting. I saw a ton of people I know there from Alex P. (big surprise) to Thomas M. (HUGE surprise). This summer is running out way to fast and it sucks.